well i knew that talking to his mom was going to make sumkind of a mess . . now he juz trying to think of everytime ive lied to him ..  it feels as if sumone is rubbing my face in shit . .  really. .  ive never juz jumped on the pc to write . ..  but this is really hurtful  . . he cant trust me and it feels as if im trying and hes not . .    ..why must he think about things that arent going to help  .. btw he live together . . we had our own apartment but now we're staying with his family. .  so i feel tha tention . . . i dont know what to write im juz really sad. . 

Sorry about the boyfriend problems...I know that sux. And I hate to say something that you don't wanna hear but trust really is one of the biggest, most important foundations in a relationship and if one of you doesn't trust the other, well...maybe it is best to wait and see if it can be mended or if it's better to let go. I'm sorry...that's just been my experience...thought I'd share

thats sumthing i should have learned when i 1st got with him .. i lied . . but who dont . . he is the person that has showed me what a relationship is . . thats why i put up with the "rub in the face thing" .. . heh .. my BF juz walked in .. i let him read what u wrote . . he reads everything i write . . lol . .:the trust thing again: .. btw he said he loves the cats . . anyhow i guess you can say im trying to mend his heart too. . . i was his 1st . . i was the first to break his heart . . thats another reason why i stay . . he deserves to be with sumone that wont break his heart . .

grr .. ok this is my 1st reply to sumthing i write . . its helped to open up . .

i love bloggin' . . ..

umm .. correction he doesn't read what I write... along time ago he use to read somethings ... ROLF that was him. . omg anyhow i was his 1st "sleep over" and 1st to break his heart . . i didnt mean break his heart the 1st time lol . .