Everything with angel is great we talked things out. . i really thought there was going to be a fight . . he still my "lil lamb"  Thats his middle name in rela life ..  really all we needed to do is juz talk  . .

 

As of right now im writting with pen and paper! Yay ... .well i share that pc with angel . so you know. .. Anyhow im trying to find sumthing to do when i dont have access to the internet ..lol ..  im hopin that i let more out this way . come to thing about it i know it will  . shit ive been writting since i was 15. Thats where i started using my family nick name that ive had since i was 7 . . uggg i hate numbers btw .. So anyhow writting relly does help ..  is this a lot of writting?

back on subject when angel jumped on the pc the 1st thing i did was find sumtihgn to do. and thats read with me ..  so i have a book here that ill be posting from. i think everyone and thier grandma kows this one . . Chicken Soup 4 tha soul   . .  well i had to have tha 2nd helping ..  . . grr ill have to write more later .. angel is feedin me strawberries by mouth  .  . y was i so scared ? . .

well i knew that talking to his mom was going to make sumkind of a mess . . now he juz trying to think of everytime ive lied to him ..  it feels as if sumone is rubbing my face in shit . .  really. .  ive never juz jumped on the pc to write . ..  but this is really hurtful  . . he cant trust me and it feels as if im trying and hes not . .    ..why must he think about things that arent going to help  .. btw he live together . . we had our own apartment but now we're staying with his family. .  so i feel tha tention . . . i dont know what to write im juz really sad. . 

i love my baby angel!!

so lets get to my lil life . ..  i ate chilli for breakfast . . lol. .  my BF made it so while i was finishing this up i ate some. . . so anyhow me and my BF are to get married soon . . theres a problem though ..  hes having a hard time believing me that i never cheated on him. .  inwhich hurts. .  btw he the only BF i never cheated on. . reason: i know that he wont cheat on me. .  it feels like i did a good job on sumthing and not being seen for it. .  plus his mom feels tha same . . not good. . i know. . . i told him that if ur mom feels like that youll end up telling me that we should hold things off. . . i really hope that he follows his heart and relives that i love him more than words can say ..